torsdag 30. oktober 2008

I Just Want To Be Loved ...

Burn, burn, burning.
Leave a mark on my shoulder to signify the meaning of light
Lighten up by scorching away the flesh that binds earthly bad habits to me

And set me free in the immense power of the pendulum

tirsdag 28. oktober 2008

This immense emotion taking over
Nonesense!
I suppose you wish it to control me?

Get away!

Stupid attractive darkness
Stop crying, no-one's watching

Stop weeping, no-one's listening
Stop being, no-one cares

Stop depressing, I don't like you!
Stop whining, I can't stand you
Go hide, but don't try to pout at me

I'm blind to your grief and mute to comfort you

mandag 27. oktober 2008

Oh, so adorable the sweet eyes of fate
I knew you'd smile at me, at least I hoped
All those dark days flew away into the mist
And suddenly I'm fine

Oh betraying faces of soulmates and jokers
I need no smile from you
When I see my lover's smile, it all seems nonesense
Ans I realise I'm happy alone

Oh, caress my soul but not my heart
For my soul is unbreakable

Oh shine your joy on my face
And leave the darkness for another day.

lørdag 18. oktober 2008

The forever counting piece on love


What is this love thing anyways? I love love, I love being in love, I love loving ... But is that it? Can love be separated from passion, from adoration and admiration? Have you ever had one of those moments of pure passion and love with someone you hardly know? The lovely person sitting in front of you, you're talking but the words don't come easy, and then you start smooching and everything is just perfect? I have.

I guess when you've been without it for a long time, love does seem harder to find. And humans so easily over-analyze things, making the smallest thing a sign of love and the biggest declaration of admiration an insult. And sex ... There is really a big difference between sex and making love, but I do believe that you can make love to a complete stranger. In the dark night, in the light of a burned-out candle ... Love does seem to find its way into our hearts through the weirdest of coincidences.

I am a firm believer of the fact that all things happen for a reason and that nothing happens before you're ready for it. Why then tangle oneself up in darkness and negative thinking? Take each day as it comes. If one savors each moment to the fullest and never regrets anything, nothing can be taken away from you at death.

We have everything to lose, that's the charm of it.

fredag 17. oktober 2008

To Mr. Starry Eyes

Did you know I missed you?
Missed not missing you. I love you're non-addictive gorgeousness.
As the flames rise higher, your stars come out
Out in the blue-black ocean of insomnia and poems
Screaming of a thousand fans in an out-dated stadium
Laughter bordering to hysteria
Love, love, love
Sex, sex, sex

tender, moist skin that reflects my own skin's frailty
Does your heart reflect mine or embrace it?
And so as the candles light up the dark room once again, she begins to wonder. When did she start to ponder these realities that now seemed so dear to her? Why did the mind have such a big say in her happiness?

I wonder why the state of mind so drastically can change a moment into another one. How is it that all people see the world so different from each other? How can one situation trigger joy in my heart and fear in yours, or simply joy in my heart today and fear in my heart tomorrow?

Emotions ... those bastards keeping track of time, making life pass by in a swirl of colors and shadows. I guess one never knows. Some days, it takes so little to make me happy, you know. A smile from a passer-by can change the world for me - and isn't that just what we all want, to change the world?

I've always wanted to be that person, the one to change somebody's life with my smile or my eyes. Look at me - love me. Remember me fifty years from now as one of the purest things you ever saw and cherish me. Let me be the person on the bus stop who changed your view of the world and gave you hope back. Let me give you the courage to tell them.

Where was I? Emotions ... Why can't I be happy every time someone smiles? As I've always said, one can't be truly happy unless one has been really far down. Schmaa. Tiredness is our greatest enemy, tearing our joy apart and making us harder to please.

Take a minute to refresh yourself - we'll all love it.

tirsdag 14. oktober 2008

Tenker mye på alle utfordringene vi kommer til å møte på vår vei på den store turen. Fem måneder er lenge å være på tur i et fremmed land - lenge nok til å miste eller finne seg selv og få prøvd ut sine standpunkter.

Det kommer til å bli så utrolig spennende å dra, men det vil jo selvfølgelig by på mange utfordringer. Selv om vi begge er litt bereiste, er nok ingen av oss helt klare for alt vi vil komme til å møte på. Hver dag vil vi se død, fattigdom og sykdom - ting vi nesten aldri støter på her hjemme. Allikevel er det lite vi kan gjøre med det - det er vanskelig å balansere mellom å respektere en annen kultur og det å ikke gå helt på tvers av sine egne moralske leveregler. Hvordan vil vi reagere hvis vi støter på noe som strider helt imot våre egne holdninger?

Men selv om vi vil møte mye sjokkerende og sterkt, så vil vi også lære utrolig mye. ALLE som reiser såpass lenge opplever et visst kultursjokk, spørsmålet er vel heller hvordan man reagerer på det og om man velger å handle etter det. Asia har en veldig annerledes kultur enn Europa. I India blir jentebarn drept hver dag rett etter fødselen - de fattige har ikke råd til å sjekke kjønnet og ta abort, en pute over munn og nese derimot er gratis. I Kina finnes omreisende abortbusser som tvinger kvinner som allerede har født ett barn til å kvitte seg med det neste. I elvene flyter det lik. Melodramatisk? Virkelighet.

Allikevel er nok dette det kontinentet med mest liv også. Farger, sang og dans er en naturlig del av kulturen, og livet leves mer intenst enn noe annet sted - kanskje fordi det er så veldig dyrebart. Hva er best - liv til enhver pris eller utvalgt, intenst liv? Livet, det er så mye, sa Odd Børretzen, men egentlig koker det vel ned til kun en ting: å få så mye ut av ventetiden frem mot døden som overhodet mulig. Og selv om døden er mer dagligdags, så er den også mer respektert fordi den er nettopp det: dagligdags, en del av livet.

Og vi spøker om amerikanske fundamentalistkristne som tror Obama vil drepe nyfødte barn fordi det virker så fjernt fra vår kultur ...

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