.

So you finally gave in
And early one morning you said goodbye
But not to me
The world heard your last whispers
But not me
And I am here, all alone, awaiting your song

You promised me you’d return
You swore you wouldn’t leave me alone
Yet the signs do not come
And just as you waited, I wait
In vain

Oh, all the pain you always felt
And all the sorrowful memories you had
Unbearable for you, impossible to process and heal
Some wounds are so poisonous they kill you in the end
No matter how many times I redressed and wiped them in antiseptics
I loved you
I told you so many times
I really, really loved you
But I guess sometimes love isn’t enough

Hanging there
Or the moment before, suspensed in silence
What were the last visions in you head?
Was it him?
Was it your father?
Or was it me?
Perhaps it was just an invisionment of sorrow
Or total blackness

I hope you’re someplace better now
Hope your happy
But somehow I feel that you are no more
And your soul passed on, hopefully to a much better future
But I know scars like that will re-emerge
I hope your next life will give you a childhood that builds you strong
Strong enough to handle that hopeless task fate gave you
Of breaking out of your horrible sins of the past
And emerge like the phoenix
Harder, faster, better, stronger
And rise to your true destiny
Which I know is so much more than this.

I miss you.