At last.

Mother's Mysterious Diamond
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I left you trying to swim out of the puddle of grease
Pulling me down, my swimming finally got better
And I showered you away after each exhausting day of work
All day, all week, water, water, cleaning away the slime from my heart
And the laughter of the children healed my self-esteem

My love visited heaven for a minute
Bleak, bleak on the hospital bed and crying in my arms while they penetrated her spine with giant needles
My heart was so torn and the only reason I kept up with life was Angie's presence
I think I thanked you a hundred times, but it was the most powerful piece of poetry I ever encountered

The summer was filled with merriment and grass
I spinned, spinned and fell to the ground when I realised I had no control
Why did you leave me, brother?
And then, that magical night when you loved me
The autumn came early that year, and the spiderwebs were untangled and nested up and all threads led to you
The little spider suddenly became the victim of the crows

Of all the persons who picked me up, Whiskey was the best
We used to be so close, remember? What happened and at what point?
The weasel got to your soul at last.
I think it's best we parted when we did, we really were carving off each others need of attention
You need to be the center, don't try to convince yourself of anything else
But you lost him, for he will always be mine

Green Eyes, now far, far away but still so close
What would I have done without you?
You know you've saved me more than once, and kept me from flying off into the star-struck skies
Keep that rope tied to your wrist and never cut it off, cause you know I've always wanted to fly

And I have been hovering lately
I guess I can finally say I'm really happy.
I know last summer was fun, but still, so much mud and clouds, so many spiders I realise now
And so much addiction
The needles I know inject are poison keeping me from being poisoned
I usually poisoned myself to hurt me

I'm so free, free, free
And I see in his eyes the light I will meet so many times throughout my life
Love.
And I can finally say: I really love.
I really love.