Every Time I Close My Eyes (Old Poem)

Every time I close my eyes, they come
Demons of my mind, demons of my soul
Despising me, hating me
Loving my fear so tenderly I could die

My body is untouchable, yet my soul is frail
If they take me, I am lost

Stand up against them
Look into their eyes
They are dead
They are alive
They are demons

Kill us, not their wish
Let us feel their fear
I hear their laughter every time I close my eyes
I see their bloody eyes and their rotten hands
Help me, save me
Hold me and never let me go
I cannot leave them, why?
In some weird scenario I am tied to them and they to me

Frightened every night
Needing love and care to wash my tears away
The tears of my soul, invisible to humans but like neon lights to them
They feel my weakness, my pain

They do not want to kill, no
Fear us, they say
Let us hear your cries
Your helpless tears when no-one is there to save you
Loneliness
One day they’ll be the only friends I have

The demons, the lost ones
Those without souls
They come for me, may others be spared
Eating my flesh and craving my blood
Unholy, unsacred
I am sacred, yet they inhale my breath
I am holy, yet they spit in my wounds
Their lack of love is unbearable

I hope my strength will last
I never want to join them
Stand by my side, hold my hand
They frighten me, you know that

Save me!
The living dead try to take my dead life for their own
Their screams freeze my soul
So they can break it easily

Every night they are here
Every night they blow out my candles and crush my defences
I am helpless

Needing love
Needing love

Save me